The Nutcracker Prince - A Gem From My Childhood!

When I was a young boy (we'll say 4 or 5) my parents didn't have a lot of money, also known as "we were poor"... I can recall they used to buy "bootleg movies" off this guy in Chilliwack who eventually got caught and I think went to prison for it...

BUT ANYWAYS! To deal with the fact that my parents didn't have a lot of money and they had two kids they bought movies off this guy. They were really cheap and had 3 movies on a tape, one of those movies was THE NUTCRACKER PRINCE, a gorgeous little animated feature that I adored.

I present to you (in YouTube Format) the entire movie split into 7 parts, I think you should sit down and have a watch, it's truly wonderful. This movie was the first movie to make me cry and it was because of the use of Tchaikovsky's music. The piece used to score the ending scenes Pas de Deux: Intrada is one of the greatest things I've ever listened to and always will be, it's like a 3 act structured story put into a song it breaks my heart!

But, without further adieu, submitted for the approval of the Midnight Society, I give you:

THE NUTCRACKER PRINCE

Part One:


Part Two:


Part Three:


Part Four:


Part Five:


Part Six:


AND FINALLY, Part Seven:


Siiiiigh! How wonderful! The ending of that is just UGH! Breaks my heart... Love you guys!

PS- I'm writing again, FINALLY! Almost finished a new short called "This Modern Love" it's a Zombie Romance!

Been a Long Time Since I... BLOGGED! (aka Book of Christopher)

Goodness! It's been forever since I last blogged! Wow! Let's try and do a quick update here...

My last blog was March 8th, the day after Christopher broke up with me. Yes, the cause of all my sorrows should have ended then, right? NOPE! It took about a month and a half before the shit ended, but it IS a happy ending, so no worries loves!

Okay, let's go over the book of Christopher and then we'll have a better understanding of stupid me and even more stupid him.

THE BOOK OF CHRISTOPHER (AKA How I know my good boyfriend Taylor <3)

Chapter One: The Meeting
Okay, so our tale begins on a website called "plentyoffish" (a website that will come up a few times throughout). I had an old account on this website from back in my hookup days that needed serious updating. So, I added some pics of me in my kilt, I spruced up the old description and BAM! Christopher messaged me saying something about how "rad" kilts are. Now, I should have known "DOUCHE" right off the bat when he said "rad" but this was someone who seemed interesting otherwise.
So, we added each other to MSN and Facebook and began chatting. Christopher had an interest in opera (something I was just begining to get into) and an interest in musicals (something I had years of experience in). So blah blah blah! He said "I'm crushing on you" and suggested we meet up that weekend.
We met and watched Sweeney Todd, made out (something that never really happened again after that), wore kilts around vancouver, and headed back to my place where we fucked.
That night Christopher said I was a "keeper" and asked if I'd be his "boyfriend". I was in full swoon mode and we spent the next four days hanging out, fucking, and spending my money.

Chapter Two: Money Money Money

Christopher was a manipulative little bastard. He liked to make you just jealous enough that you'd work harder to keep him but not jealous enough to dump him and stop spending money on him. Manipulation is serious business and you only get good at it if you've had a lifetime of practice (believe me, I know, because I can do it most of the time).
This bastard's way of mental mind fucking was to keep his plentyoffish account and mention the boys he was chatting with as friends. He always just needed more friends.
My mind was fucked into thinking "We're obviously not doing enough together I'll plan more and more things I can take him to." And thus began my course of spending the most money I've ever spent in such a short period of time.
Christopher had obviously worked his parents and friends over for years and knew just what to do (be grateful, but not too grateful, let them know they can always do more).

Chapter Three: Valentines Day Massacre (or I shouldn't be here...)

So, anyways, time went on and Christopher fucked me over time and again getting me to pick him up for dates so he could cancel at the last minute and get a ride to the skytrain where he'd go see BB (his recluse friend on UBC's campus who, according to Christopher, didn't like anybody but him and was obsessed with buying clothes he couldn't afford like Burberry and Lacoste) or this guy named Taylor.
Anyways, I got upset and decided Valentines Day was the day that we'd have to ourselves. So I planned the day out: an opera in the morning, then lunch, then a walk downtown, dinner, and home.
The day started off great! I picked him up, we went to the opera, we had lunch, we took a nap together, fucked and he suggested we go downtown to the library for a bit. As soon as we got to the library he decided to tell me his friend Taylor was having a bad Valentines Day and would I hate him if he ditched me?
I snapped, "I don't hate you, but you have to leave me today? Because your friend isn't having a good day? What the hell?"
This was out of nowhere to him "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was doing anything wrong... Would you like to join us? We're just gonna get something to eat with his friend" I grumbled and we headed to meet up with this TAYLOR character...
We arrived at the Cactus Club on Burrard where I met Taylor and his Friend Alexxa, both of which were having a gay old time it seemed. I decided to drop it and we'd just enjoy dinner here.
As we ate Taylor realizes who I am "OHHHHH! You're the Disney friend" he says and I nod confused as to why he didn't know me, afterall I AM his friend's boyfriend.
So we continue eating and end off the night at Cupcake where I buy a 1/2 a dozen cupcakes that were finished by the end of the night by, you guessed it.
As we drove home I asked Christopher about Taylor who he said was "a new friend" and I asked why I was known as "the Disney friend" and not "the boyfriend" to which he shrugged and said he didn't know really...

CHAPTER FOUR: A NEW ACQUAINTANCE?

So, being the vengeful bitch I am, I decided to make it PERFECTLY CLEAR to this Taylor character that Christopher was NOT on the market and to befriend him (maybe to keep my enemies close, maybe to have a new friend, who knows :P) But anyways I found him on plentyoffish and became chat buddies and friends on facebook.
This drove Christopher MAD! He confronted me one night and asked why I was always commenting on Taylor's status updates on facebook. Because I'm his friend? But I barely know him! Maybe I want to get to know him! Well Christopher finished "I don't normally mix my friends with my boyfriends and I don't like this"
Somehow this made sense to me? I don't know how, but I decided to stop commenting then.

Chapter Five: A Trip to Seattle (will fix everything?)

Bleh, I was in a rut now. Somehow I'd managed to piss off Christopher by talking to his friend... What could I do?
BING! A new message from "Seattle Opera" pops up in the bottom right of my moniter's screen. THAT'S IT! A trip to Seattle for the weekend! We can stay at a hotel and roam the city! And have sex in a hotel! And see an opera! OH EM GEE! This is gonna be great!
Christopher says he's not sure if he should. Come on! We can get away and enjoy ourselves. He doesn't really have any money. Well that's okay, I've budgeted it out and it'll only be about $200 if we don't do all the touristy stuff.
Grateful, but not too grateful and BAM! We're on our way...
So we check into the hotel and right away he wants to see the space needle. Oh, okay, well I guess we can do that... And the monorail... And to eat out a lot... and he wants a souvenir book... and he wants... and he wants... and he wants...
BLEH! So we get back to the hotel for a little break and are you kidding me? NO SEX! He wants to head out again and check out more things... COME ON! I've never done it in America... Later... Later comes and nothing, but he does want pizza. This trip fucking sucks!
We head home and he sleeps the entire way snoring his fucking head off as I try and listen to music.
I drop him off and he says he's gonna be busy for the rest of the week and I have to practically force him to give me a kiss. This was the last time I saw him as my boyfriend...

Chapter Six: The Breakup to the Breakdown

"Listen, next time I see you we need to have a little chat" the messenger box on my computer says.

"Chat? About what?"

"Just relationship stuff. Don't worry about it now. So what are you up to?"

Don't worry about it? What the fuck??? "What kind of talk?"

"I said don't worry."

"Well I can't not worry, what's it about? Is something wrong?"

"Yes and no..."

WTF? "What does that mean?"

"Look do you want me to do this over the internet? Really?"

"Do what? Are you breaking up with me?"

"Sigh. Okay, I think we'd be better off as friends. I really care about you, but I don't think things are working out. I've gotta go though, my mom's up and told me to go to bed. You okay?"

I think about the question and answer "Yeah... I think I'll be fine actually."

"Good, night"

"Wait. Why?"

"I've gotta go okay? I have to get up early tomorrow to help my dad work. Goodnight!"

Click! and he's gone. BAM! It hits me like a ton of bricks to the heart. OUCH! What the fuck? BAM! Again! Oh my fucking god! I'm a loser! What the fuck have I been doing? What the fuck just happened? OUCH! Tears start pouring out my eyes and I'm heaving for breath, what is this?

My mind tells me to go get cigarettes and fast! So I stumble down the stairs sobbing all the way! QUIET! Angela (my sister) will wake up! SOB SOB SOB! I get to my car and decide to wait for a quiet moment to drive. My phone rings, it's Angela.

"You okay? What's going on?"

"He- (in audible noises) He- Dumped- ME!"

"What? Why?"

"I dunno! I need cigarettes! I'm sorry I have to smoke..."

"Oh, okay. Yeah, just be careful driving. But don't worry I understand..."

I start the ignition, drive, and get the pack of smokes that I inhale one after another for the next month and a half...

Chapter Seven: The Day After

Somehow I managed to get to sleep for 2.5 hours. I got up and had to text him "Hey, can we talk? I don't feel like we've had closure and it'd really help if I saw you."

"I think it's best if we both sort out our feelings first. Give it a few days."

A FEW DAYS? What the fuck? How? "No, seriously could we just talk for five minutes?"

"I SAID GIVE ME TIME."

I call and get his machine. "Could you just talk to me for five minutes please? I don't like that this happened over msn and I'd like to talk to you"

Later I found out that he was making fun of me for how "needy" I was and how "over-emotional" I was, but that's another story.

"LOOK! I'll call you tomorrow if you just leave me alone okay?"

So I lazed about going crazy waiting for the next day. The next day I skipped school again and went out to Chilliwack to see my mom. I told her what happened and we went for lunch. I cried more and at 6:50pm he called me "Hello?"

"Hi, I would like to order a pizza please. Extra anchovies and mushrooms" (or something equally stupid) he said.

"Hi, how are you?"

"Good! I had a wonderful day today. I saw Taylor. I baked him a cake and we saw Watchmen."

"Oh..." I choke back angry tears.

"Yeah. He really liked the cake."

"That's good, how is he?"

"Gooooooooood! He has a boyfriend now."

YES! Finally some fucking good news! "Oh? Wow! Good for him! I just wanted to talk and just let you know that I'd still like to try and be friends. You don't have to block me on msn and crap. We're a bit better than that aren't we?"

"Okay, well I've gotta go, Wheel of Fortune is starting in a few minutes. Bye."

"Ummm, oh, okay? Bye?"

Click... Wheel of Fortune?

Chapter Eight: A Fuck Buddy?

So he unblocked me from msn and we chatted more. We decided to try and hang out on Weds (2 days from then) and just go for a walk. I went and picked him up and we walked around. He joked about "naughty texts" Taylor was sending him (as if) and said I was doing great with the whole thing.

We headed home and on the way he said "Man... I'm horny..."

I didn't know what to say "Oh..."

"It sucks..."

"What do you want me to fuck you or something?"

"Could we? Would that be weird?"

"I don't know... Would it?" I asked back.

"I think we could. We're so good together," This made me smile.

"Okay."

"Alright, but as soon as one of us finds someone else we need to stop with no hard feelings, right?"

"Yeah..."

Chapter Nine: Sicko!

So, it went on like that for about 3 weeks, during which I'd started chatting with Taylor again. We were bored one day and went to see Monsters Vs Aliens and afterwards he was going climbing so I went too. I met his boss, Kelly who seemed cool and had a lot of fun.

Christopher didn't like that, but I didn't care now.

Anyways, Christopher got sick at the end of March (a few days after my birthday) and had to stay home. I asked Taylor to join my sister and I to see Fanboys and while we were there he asked what I thought of Christopher being in the hospital... WHAT???

Yeah, he went to the hospital and texted everyone but me, ugh! Anyways, so he was stuck in the hospital and kept texting me about how he was going to die which would make me breakdown during class crying and I looked like a right nut job!

I decided to take some of his friends out to see him at the hospital in Langley and lent him a bunch of dvds to keep him occupied... One of the friends I took to see him was Taylor. After Taylor and I went to see him we decided to go hang out downtown and get a drink. We ended up getting really drunk and he appologized to me for Valentine's Day.

I ended up telling him the entire story of Christopher and me. He told me Christopher's version where he was trapped with me and how he wanted to dump me since Valentines Day but couldn't and how Taylor told him he shouldn't go to Seattle with me if he didn't want to be with me... Then we went to see Fast and Furious where we laughed our drunk asses off!

We continued to hang out, Taylor broke up with his boyfriend, and he let me know through a text that he had too much fun with me and that he had kind of a crush on me. I hadn't thought about it but I realized I did too. The next day I suggested we drink wine in a park somewhere and he suggested Wreck Beach. We met up and got super drunk on Wreck Beach... I ended up falling off a log and after he helped me back up he went forward and kissed me. "I'm sorry!" He said, shocked at himself for doing that. I smiled at him and told him "Don't be." I kissed him back and we lived happily ever after! <3

Epilogue: A Text Comes Through

As I sat here writing this story I recieved a text from Taylor: "I miss you. 2200 can't come soon enough." We haven't seen each other for two days and are going rock climbing tonight. Yes, I've decided to stick with the rock climbing and learn more.

The text makes me smile and my face flush because I know he's good for me.
Without Christopher I wouldn't know him and I guess without Christopher I wouldn't know what I don't want and might still be a weak fool allowing myself to be manipulated into spending ridiculous amounts of money on a shit-head boy.

I love Taylor and couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. I'd do a "Book of Taylor" But it would be pretty much free of conflict. The worst fights we've had have been slight disagreements about nothing.

If you don't have your own "Book of _______" detailing a self destructive relationship you've been in count yourself lucky. If you do have one but you've got yourself a "Taylor" out of it count yourself the luckiest person in the world, I do.

THE END

Demon Host by Timber Timbre

This song calms me, haunts me, frightens me, soothes me, breaks my heart, mends my heart, kills me, revives me... But, most of all, it amazes me. Enjoy.

http://playmyguitar.org/01DemonHost.mp3 (right click and say "save target as")

Demon Host
by Timber Timbre

Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh

Death she must have been your will
Up on beneath the reaper's veil
And with your voice my belly sunk
And I began to feel so drunk

Candle, Candle on my clock
Oh lord I must of heard you
Knock me out of bed
As the flames licked my head
And my lungs filled up with black
In their tiny little shack

It was real
and I repent
All those messengers you sent
Clear as day
But in the night
Oh I couldn't get it right

Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh

Here is a church
And here is the steeple
Open the doors there are the people
And all their little hearts at ease
for another week's disease

And eagle, eagle, towel and screen
I never once lived in between
I was on the fence
and I never wanted your two cents
Down my throat
In the pit
With my head upon a spit

Oh reverend please
Catch you your ear
I've become what I most fear
And I know there's no such thing as ghosts
But I have seen the demon host

Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh
Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh
Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh
Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh

Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oh Oh Oh Oh

Oh and Stupid Girl!

Yeah, so I DID end up recording more Stupid Girl Episodes :D There are 18 in total now (That's 8 BRAND NEW episodes for series 2, with 3 more on the way!) and ALL can be accessed at my youtube channel:

http://www.youtube.com/user/crayonrayon

I must be getting old...

So today I was sitting and realized that my viewpoints have changed once again. I don't know if this is a common thing, somewhere just before turning 22 I started changing drastically. My mind grew up ridiculously fast and I was confused about a lot of things that were going on in my life. In my 22nd year I fell in love, was used, had my heart broken, and fell in love again...

Things happen so quickly now, things want to be settled in my mind and they want to be settled now. My personality and lifestyle has changed so much this past year, everything... Sigh, I wish I were young again... THERE!

It's so strange, today it just hit me my thoughts went from "I'm ALMOST 23???" to "I'm only 22!" What the hell? One day I feel like age is rushing at me too fast, then suddenly I'm thinking there's all the time in the world. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

Also, I'm turning into a lesbian COMPLETELY... Now, if you're lezzer don't get all offended... It's the truth that many stereotypes are true, just like with my group, the faggots. It's just the sad truth. Anyways, one of my best friends is a Lezzer, so back off!

<3 you!

- Tyrel

The Bitch Hasn't Been Bloggin!

Yellow Kiddos!
Wow I've really been neglecting you haven't I? Hmmm, not a lot has gone on in recent days that I'd care to talk about except the following:

- I got 2 tickets to Rigoletto CHEAP for Christopher and I on March 17th! :D
- I MIGHT be taking Christopher to Seattle this weekend to explore, stay at a hotel, and see "Bluebeard's Castle with Erwartung" at Seattle Opera!
- My screenplay is done it's first draft! I'm pleased with it, the class was pretty pleased too.
- My sketches that I submitted for the Sketch show next term went over AMAZINGLY thanks to this genius actress they got to read the part I created!

That's about it though... Third Term ends tomorrow, so we'll see what next term brings! Hopefully I'll have time for a part-time job :D

With Love,
Tyrel Boelsma

PS- I MIIIIIIIGHT record season two of Stupid Girl in the next week or so... depends if I feel like getting made up :S

Wow! I'm missing days left right and center!

Hmmm, what to update on? I had Tues off and Christopher spent the night, I dropped him off Weds before school... Not much happened Weds. Last night was Thurs so we had our Disney Princess night... it was Aladdin (next week is POCAHONTAS! EEEK! I'm excited!) Annnnnnnd? That's about it really... I'm getting Christopher tonight, he's sleeping over, and we're going to the opera early tomorrow! Adios for now!

- Tyrel

Manic Monday? Not really...

So, not much to report on today... Just went to school for Doc and Sketch... I had to write jokes for sketch and they actually got a pretty decent response. I have tomorrow off... not sure EXACTLY what I'm doing yet... MIGHT go to Chilliwack and if I do I hope Christopher will come :P we'll see!

VD and Today?

Yesterday was a MOSTLY good Valentine's Day... very close to wonderful... I won't get into the small snag that makes it not wonderful because it's done with and hopefully it won't happen again...

So, I got up bright and early, went to pick up Christopher and took him to the theatres where we saw the opera, Thais. It as nice, the opera was PRETTY good except we both agreed the ending could have been cropped quite a bit, but meh!

After that we had a tiny nap at my place and headed downtown to the library. We then met up with a friend of Christopher's and all had dinner together, then we wandered a bit and got desert at the cupcake place downtown. We wandered to a Scientologist booth and I picked up some reading materials that we then ridiculed...

It got to be later so I took Christopher home and that was that.

Today? Nothing... Boredom.

Tomorrow is VD

So yeah, tomorrow is VD. First time in a relationship on it. We're going to see an opera at Cineplex (Thais), then I don't know what... :P

Last night was Disney Princess night and it was BEAUTY AND THE BEAST! <3 Twas fun...

That's all for now, have to write some stuff :S

February 11th!

Hey there,
So it's Wednesday Friday the 11th and I had a pretty good, but sort of strange day :D First I got up at 4am (Why? You tell me...) and decided to go get Christopher :P We hung out a bit, slept a bit, then eventually got up and went to Metrotown where we ate and wandered...

Then I came home and had an actually nice conversation with my father where he actually talked about my eating disorder and acknowledged it for what it was a bit... He wanted to know if I was eating and wanted to know why anyone would ever starve themselves... so I let him know it's a body issue and doesn't have a ton to do with eating just a crazy idea that you're not good enough... He wanted to know if he could do anything, I just let him know I'm doing okay right now... It was sweet but I wish I was fine... In actuality sometimes I want to go back to not eating... I don't get it at all, but I do.

Again, I think I have a mental disorder or a few... Sigh... But yeah, so the day was pretty good...

If You Say I'm Not Okay Then That's The Goal!

I'm kind of in love with this song by Lykke Li called I'm Good I'm Gone

Enjoy this remix! :D

A Conversation Piece for Music in One Act...

The title has nothing to do with the post... I just happen to love that subtitle for some reason. It's a subtitle to an opera by Strauss (Richard, not Johann) called Capriccio... I haven't watched the opera yet, it was Strauss' last and I'm excited to see it because he's a genius of a man! :D

Anyways, today is Monday, so I had stupid class all day today. I had a pretty decent day, wore my kilt with a nice dress shirt, tie, and vest... Had to go to Doc class, which was lame, ate dinner with Mike Robida at White Spot, and got to chat with Christopher for a bit... Although my conversation skills today are lame so I'm sure he was annoyed with me :S Meh... I can be on more than a rare occasion...

Tomorrow I got the day off from school and my sister got the day off from work so we venture out to Chilliwack to see Terrill :D I'm excited for that! Not sure if anything else is happening, hoping to see Christopher a bit on Weds... but he is pretty busy researching so we'll see... Not much else to say here. So night night loves!

Not finished but progress is far!

So yesterday I spent quite some time with my script and have managed to get into act 3, meaning I have about 20 pages left to write before I'm done :D I have to write up a sketch today (or go through old sketches and find one that suits this assignment) and I have to finish up my doc paper (which is on the back burner because I could care less about documentary class)

I went and watched Coraline last night in 3D :P It was a treat! Really cute, dark, and somewhat scary :P

Today, I don't know what's going on... I have to get my bus pass back from Christopher at some point... Then I'll probably have to give him a ride home... My parents are going to be here tonight... The rest shall be a surprise, I guess...

That's all I want to say kids.

A day to finish what you started...

So today I shall write... We'll see how far I get, I DO want to try and go see my friend Sonya today if that's possible, maybe get some eats with her... we'll see.

Last night I went through all the stuff I'd written last weekend in my trance and it was actually QUITE enjoyable. I thought it would be preachy bullshit, but I don't think it is at all.

Today I got a nice wake up to my phone ringing. It was Christopher just calling to tell me what he was up to :P It was sweet... We chatted a bit about the happenings of his life yesterday and today and what he was reading about. Then I decided to get up and be productive.

UGH! Hopefully that black cloud above my head is drifting away... We shall see, adios for now!

5 days no pop, over 1 month and one week no cigarettes or slurpees!

...

God, I'm so up and down lately... I'm fine right now, but still don't feel all that attractive... I feel like a wreck and am feeling guilty for the things I eat again... Eating disorder are you knocking on my door again? Should I answer?

- Tyrel

An Emo Wreck!

... so, it's very late...

Just need to let something out before I can go to sleep...
I feel extremely stupid and ugly lately.
I'm a total emotional wreck...
I wish someone would tell me I'm pretty/handsome...
I'm so pathetic I practically begged for a compliment tonight and didn't recieve one but heard about how great some other people are right after...
I want to just yell at someone (anyone, really) to tell me I'm good looking...
The only way I've felt anything lately is through sex and when I don't get that I question whether or not I'm good looking enough...
I feel fat... I feel stupid... I feel...

FUCK! I'm such an emo right now... Just a simple "You look good today" would be sufficient... But why do I need that? Why am I so insecure?

God I'm a retard! I hate myself at the moment...

Turrrrrsday!

Wow! Emo last night, eh? Well I'm over that now :P back to hiding everything ;) Today is Thursday, so as part of our weekly Disney Princess ritual, I am going to Tiana and Stephanie's with Christopher to watch:
SIIIIIIIIGH! I LOOOOOOOVE The Little Mermaid! Can't wait to sing along to "Part of Your World" <3!!!! Have a SHORT SHORT SHORT class today, then I have to hit up the library where I'm picking up a BILLION Opera DVDS :S Then... probably relax til movie time... ADIOS KIDS!

I think I'm crazy...

... I don't know, but I think I have some sort of mental disorder... Besides the obvious body issue eating disorder (which I thought was gone, but no... not really)... I don't know what it would be called, but...
- I have this need to be liked by all...
- I don't like it when someone dislikes me or is upset with me... I'll do a lot to get out of that bind... A LOT!
- I chameleon myself in different crowds to be best liked :(
- I'm overly nice...
- I overthink everything and tend to think the worst is going to happen...
- I worry about people I care about to the extreme...
- I dislike myself and think I'm hideous sometimes...
- I cry a lot...
- I don't think I'm good enough a lot of the time...

and worst of all, I hide it all... I never let anyone see any of it, that might make them think something's wrong with me and I couldn't have someone worry about me... now could I?

So this is my confession to be a crazy... it's out there in the open now! For none to see ;) I really do hate myself...

Lundi

Bonjour! So today is Monday and I was up late last night writing, not sure if it's any good... I fell into a trance and ended up writing a ton of stuff I don't remember... we shall see.



I got to see Christopher yesterday for a bit, which was nice... I gave him the wooden recorder I bought him at Long and McQuade and he loved it. He also fell in love with MY ocarina, so I gave him that too... The things I do... ha ha! I'll find myself another... They're too much fun!



I'm in sketch class right now and we're reading our sketches aloud. Mine got a pretty good response :D YAY!



Tonight I have to make sure to finish up my port short, for tomorrow and I need to read some too.

Sunday: The day of writing...

So, I neglected to write
til LATE last night
and find myself in a pickle,

I'd best write all of today,
or find my life taken away,
by the end of Death's sickle,

I've laid the foundation,
I know the setting,
Now I should head to the writing station,
Before I start forgetting,

Not sure WHERE that came from... The first line I wrote rhymed though, so I figured I'd go with it. Yeah, so I have to write today... AT LEAST 15 pages of my screenplay. Yesterday I got myself an Ocarina (because Christopher's intrigued me so much) and played it for a great deal of time yesterday figuring out the notes and teaching myself songs. SIIIIIIGH! That's all I've got to say for now, perhaps I'll post the juicy details of my script later!

Adios mis amigos!

Saturdaaaaaaaaay!

I missed my update again yesterday! Siiiiigh! I have an excuse though! I was entertaining my lover all day! After a VERY fun birthday Christopher stayed over here...

We slept in nice and late (10:00AM!), then got up and headed out to Ricky's for breakfast, we then wandered the mall a bit and couldn't think of what to do... I had to decide since I NEVER do so I said we could go downtown...

Downtown we went to the library and wandered there a bit, then we decided to go on a stroll around vancouver... We ended up on GRANVILLE street and I was SHOCKED they'd cut down all the trees :( It looks RIDICULOUS now! Anyways, on Granville we stopped by Tom Lee Music (I think that's what it's called, something like that) and looked around there... Christopher wanted a recorder so he could learn to play it again but didn't like any of the ones they had there. He had his eye on an Ocarina (OF TIME??? No...) but it was like $50... So I bought him a cheap plastic one :D He was very pleased and played it in the street as we wandered!

We ended up on Davie (how typical, I KNOW!) and wandered down there, we stopped at Starbucks so I could get fat then went to one of Christopher's favorite restaurants for lunch (it was this Italian place that serves lots of Pasta *eye roll* ha ha! He's lucky I like him so much!)

Then we went back to the car and headed back here where we just had time to get directions to... OH! Right, I didn't tell you about that... We went to see Gilbert and Sullivan's The Sorcerer put on by UBC's Gilbert and Sullivan Society, it was a wonderfully cute show and I LOVED IT!

Then I dropped my boy off at his friend's at UBC where he's spending the day hanging there... and I'm supposed to be writing my screenplay all day :P Bleh! I have SOOOOOO many opera dvds now I LOVE MY COLLECTION! I need to find time to watch more though!

Anyways kiddos! That's all for now! Love ya!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER!

Yes, my lover is growing up! And, even though he, or anyone else, reads this I thought I'd SHOUT... SHOUT! Let it aloud... these are the things I can do without... COME ON! I'm talkin' to you... SO COME ON!

Tears For Fears, anyone?

Meh... Video below!

Hump day again!

What to say about today? I got up early, went to school and had my script ripped apart... It went pretty good. The changes they want are mainly just polishing of the plot and cutting dialogue down a bit, so no BIG worries there...

I then came home and went to Burger King with my sister... When we returned I talked to Sir Christopher online a bit and listened to SQUARESOFT MUSIC from my middleschool days. SIIIIIIIGH! I'd forgotten how much I love Squaresoft music. It's so beautifully composed! Back in October this thing came to town called Video Games Live that I REALLY should have gone to... but I didn't :( Stupid foolish me... Anyways I enjoyed that, watched this weeks American Dad (still a fun show) and the past 2 Degrassi episodes...

THEEEEEN! I went and picked up my Christopher and brought him back here where we now sit on my computers working away... Can't type long, have to read a script before bed kiddos! NIGHT NIGHT! LOVE YA!

I want...

ANOTHER CHOOSEDAY!

Shit... I forgot to blog AGAIN yesterday! MHLARG! I don't think I wrote anything yesterday either... LAME! Let's see... what happened yesterday. OH! Let's start off by welcoming back an OLD friend of mine...



THE PATTULLO BRIDGE! I didn't know how much I loved it til it was gone, and now that it's back. Siiiiiiiiiiigh! I'm in love. So yeah, in celebration of the bridge re-opening I drove to school yesterday.

We had Doc class in the afternoon, which was MEH... I dislike making Docs, so I'm kind of pissed this class isn't an elective, but whatevs... Then in the evening we had sketch comedy, which was decent... We just read our sketches... Mine did a lot better than I thought it would but still needs a lot of work.

During class Mr. Christopher texted me and asked if I'd like to join him again this Thursday to watch Sleeping Beauty with Tiana and Stephanie. I JUMPED at the chance! I'm SO excited! Then he's spending the night and we're going to see Gilbert and Sullivan's "The Sorcerer" presented by UBC on Friday night! YAY! ALSO! Thursday is his birthday so DOUBLE EXCITING! He's going to bake a cake... He won't let me bake him one, in case you're wondering why I'm not making one... I'll get him a LITTLE something I'm sure (probably my usual, but he'll love it: A Cherry Blossom and a copy of The Globe and Mail)

So, at the moment I'm writing this on the skytrain on my way to Port Short class and I'll post it when I can connect to the internet. I'm SLEEPY and the damn snow came down a bit this morning. I hope it dies and goes to hell!

I guess that's all for now kiddos! Adios for now...

- Tyrel

50th POST!

YAY! So I haven't been smoking, I haven't been slurpee drinking, I've been writing daily (except that one day, but I wrote something for class that day :D), and I've been awesome!

So last night I was all alone and decided I wanted to do something, so I got on the computer and asked my friend Aja if she'd like to go to the opera with me to see Carmen. She said she'd be delighted to so we met up at 5 for dinner at WHITE SPOT, where we dicussed boys ;) and life and past lives we once led :P as we ate our yummy meals and drank Aja's yummy wine... Then we looked at our watches and it was 7:00! SHIT! The opera starts in 30 mins and we don't have tickets...

We get there to see "Sold Out" written on the signs and sighed and cried :P

BUT THEN! This man starts walking around asking "You looking for an extra ticket?" SHIT! Scalpers! And I don't have cash! "Let's run to the bank AJA! QUICK!"

So we head to the bank and hurry back, but the scalper man is gone :( No one else seems to be holding, so we're sad... THEN I FORCE Aja to go ask if there's ANYWAY we can see the show. The lady says "Well we have 2 seats left, but they're the highest price 175.00..."

We look at each other and say "*sigh* sure..."

"Hold on!" Another lady at the box office says, "Someone GAVE this ticket in... it's free..."

Aja and I smiled "We'll take that one and one of the expensive tickets!"

So we rush in, Aja and I fought over who would have to take the expensive one... She said I would and ran upstairs to her seat (which was 5th row balcony, so AWESOME view too) Mine was located in the orchestra around the middle of the theatre and was gorgeous view too. I was sat next to this WEIRD woman who wouldn't move when I needed to sit down, so I "accidentally" stepped on her feet! The show began and it was wonderful! Act one ended and I rushed out to buy Aja and I some wine...

We drank and I returned to my seat where the woman wouldn't move AGAIN! After I sat she asked if I was with the press. I told her "No" she asked if I were familiar with the show. I said "Yes, I've seen 2 other productions" I MEANT on DVD, but she thought I meant live and asked where... I decided to act cultured and said "London at the Covent Garden and I can't recall where the other one was to be honest..." She asked my opinion on the production and I said "Oh, well in comparisson to the Covent Garden one it's a much smaller scale of course, but it's a TERRIFIC job for a small opera company. She asked my opinions on Carmen and I said "She's actually quite wonderful. She brings a lot of spunk and character to the role. She really seems to be living it." BAH HA HA! The woman is TOTALLY going to use my opinions. She left during second intermission so Aja came and joined me for acts 3 and 4...

But honestly, it was A WONDEFUL PRODUCTION. I love Vancouver Opera and this production was another great one by them. The Carmen they chose WAS wonderful and DID bring a lot to the role. It was a GREAT NIGHT!

AND what we expected to be a WELL over $100 night turned out to only come to about $100 with the wine :D

A boy like me...

That's "A Boy Like Me" by Patrick Wolf... J'adore! It's a huge source of inspiration for the character I'm writing right now in my screenplay... I'm loving following structure, but I can't allow myself to be fully bound to it :( That's my problem... Even though I follow structure I can't let go of my intent... which is good, but makes it difficult in deciding what goes in... The following is LONG but explains the complications of creations so WELL! Mr. Sondheim is gorgeous!

On edge... Over thinker... Tales of a Crazy...

I'm bitchy!
I'm happy!
I'm sad!
I'm delighted!
I'm enthralled!
I'm excited!
I'm nervous!
I'm talkative!
I'm silent!
I'm thinking!
My mind's a blank...

I'm literally CRAZY right now! I'm not sure if it has to do with what my screenplay is bringing up in me, what my stupid overthinking mind is doing, what quitting cigarettes is doing to me, what... WHAT... WHAAAAAT! I'm not stable right now though...

I thought I was PERFECTLY fine today, I got up, went to breakfast with Christopher, dropped him off at the skytrain to go downtown, came back home, unpacked the rest of my stuff, started writing, then around 4pm... BAM! I had this cloud over my head, but then I'd have sunshine, then I'd have rain pouring down on me, then I'd be in fog...

As I drove Christopher home tonight EVERYTHING was going through my mind... Seriously, EVERYTHING in my life all at once. I couldn't focus on a song he was playing me because I was worried about (insert anything here)...

OH NOES! I missed a day...

Siiiiigh! So, yesterday it happened. I shall blame Christopher for keeping my attention all day and making me forget to blog... Umm, yesterday I had fun going from the new place to the skytrain and trying to find parking since the DAMN Pattullo Bridge is out of service. Yeah... thanks to that, the parking lots are SO jam packed people are parking on sidewalks... SIDEWALKS! BLAH!

But yeah, so once I found parking and made it to school I critiqued some scripts quickly then came home to unpack. After unpacking MOST of my stuff I went to get Christopher and we went to watch Cinderella (Gay, I know :D) at his best friend's place (who is incidentally the sister of a girl in my class, SMALL WORLD). That was a blast and we had fun reviewing the movie as it played out.

After that not much else happened, but we came back here and I'm now waiting for him to have a shower and get dressed so I can follow suit and we can go get a yummy breakfasty meal. OH! I gave him his birthday present and he liked it even though it wasn't QUITE what I expected it to be he still enjoyed it.

That's all for now lovlies... I'll catch you later.

Love,
Tyrel Boelsma!

PS - Still cigarette and slurpee free! THREE WEEKS KIDS!

Moooooooooving day!

So, today we moved. It was a long day :(

First I had a stupid hour and a half long class downtown so I had to pay fare going there and back... what a WASTE of money, seriously!

After class I made a quick stop at this store near my class called Sikora's. They sell classical music stuff there and I got my hands on an opera dvd I've been wanting called "From the House of the Dead" by Leos Janacek. I'm very excited to watch it! Maybe tomorrow night.

Looks like I'll be going to the Metropolitan screening alone this Saturday of Orfeo Ud Euridice...

I'm SO on edge right now... I'm VERY hormonal... STILL FUCKING CIGARETTE AND SLURPEE FREE!

Too bad! BAH HA HA!

My god...

... not smoking and quitting slurpees at the same time has made me SO hormonal... I get so upset over little things. Not like "I'm going to kill you!" upset... just "oh that sucks... it's probably because you're an idiot!" upset... and then I wonder why I think I'm an idiot... And then I start to think about stupid things I've done... And then I get appologetic about things... and then... BLEH! Stupid mind, BACK OFF!

So yeah, I didn't do ANYTHING tonight... Christopher wanted to stay in... Siiiiiigh! I'm such an ignorant child about relationships... Why didn't I try these stupid things out in high school like everyone else did?

Plans are a no go for Chooseday night :(

Not doing anything tonight now... :( I am sad...

Choose day Schmooz day!

So it's CHOOSE-DAY again, and I'm still Cigarette and Slurpee-free! Thank you! Thank you!

Today in class we went over our short scripts. PIGmalion went over best, it was VERY well recieved which excites me. The other two went better than I expected them to. I did the two bitchy teens in a restaurant as well as a sketch I'd written over the summer with a GAY character named Tristan. It's just him sitting on a bench smoking and reading Vogue as annoying people tell him smoking is bad for you. That one was, just that though, a sketch!

Anyways, I decided to go forward with PIGmalion (which I plan on being the one to shoot) and Bitchy Teens in a Restaurant (which I came up with a funny ending to during the read-through).

Tonight Christopher and I are going to do something. Not sure what, but something, and I'm excited! I miss him often, which I think is kind of strange, but so is A BUNCH of stuff about our relationship. The two of us are far from "conventional" for one another, but it seems to work... I would think he'd get pissed off at my ignorance on many things, but he seems to enjoy explaining things to me :D He probably thinks I'd get annoyed with A LOT of his things, but I just find them endearing...

Yeah, so I'm quite happy that I get to see him tonight and maybe tomorrow too. The skytrain ride home was DISGUSTING... people reeked of cigarettes and this woman's hand grazed my penis area for quite some time... I noticed some girls found my uncomfortable face amusing to watch and that made me a bit MORE uncomfortable. BLEH!

I worked out today. Hopefully I'll eat right and not get all tired again from this one. We'll see.

That's all for now kiddos! Catch you later!

- Tyrel

Moron Monday

Okay, I'm sitting in Documentary class and writing this post in wordpad and will transfer this when I can connect to the internet. This guy in my class is pitching some documentary that would just be recording him and his friends smoking weed. That's it.

Chase Kantor Notes: "I don't want to say it's dull and unimaginative, but it has all the appeal of a magician shooting me in the face then charging me 35 dollars."

Today the second part of Christopher's B-Day present came in the mail. I was VERY disappointed with it :"( I'm not going to put what I got him, but I HOPE he likes it. Siiiiiiigh!

I have stupid classes ALL day today. Documentary 1-4pm, Lecture 5-6pm, Sketch Comedy 6-9pm... This is laaaaaaame! But at least I get Fridays off and every second Wednesday.
Not much else to report on today kids... That's my exciting life today! WOOT! Adios!

Sunday is the day of packing?

BLEH! Siiiiiiiiigh! I'm taking a break right now from PACKING!

I did my 2 shelving units (which contain enough DVDs and Books for 4 shelving units) and filled 4.5 boxes... Jesus I have a lot of crap! I need to take down all my posters :( and empty this room out :( I don't particularily care for this place but I AM sad that I'm leaving... sort of... I'm going to miss a lot about this place, I'm sure.

Bleh... That's all I really have to say about that... I wrote my script last night for "PIGmalion" and LOOOOOOOVE it! I hope it gets good responses at the read on Tues. I still need to write 2 other shorts, but Siiiigh I need some inspiration, with this one Christopher told me to write about Pygmalion so I thought this was DEADLY funny if you compare it to the original story... The others I'm not feeling it yet... maybe I'll get inspired as I pack more and listen to my music loudly :D

Adios for now strangers! Still cigarette and slurpee free!

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y!

So, let's see... Today was interesting. I got up extra early to get ready to go to the movie theatres with Christopher to see "La Damnation de Faust" as part of the Metropolitan Opera screenings. It was a BEAUTIFUL production and had some good pieces in it... but overall the story isn't really there. It's missing a lot. The staging was SO WONDERFUL though. It was this new technology on giant screens that uses the body heat of the actors to morph the images projected... I don't really know how to describe it, but it was TOO COOL SERIOUSLY! Christopher and I enjoyed ourselves, but both agreed that we probably wouldn't watch the whole thing again, just highlights...

After that I took Christopher into Langley so he could pick up this videogame he'd seen in a store. An NES version of Star Wars in the original box with the instructions and adverts :D I have to admit, it was pretty cool! Then I took him up to my part of town where I dropped him off at the skytrain to go spend some more time in Van visiting old friends he hasn't seen in years. I got a little sad when I was dropping him off and I think he felt bad... As I drove home I texted him to let him know that I was sorry to be all pouty and to actually have a good time and not worry about me being stupid :D Afterall, he has known them longer and it's a HUGE transition probably moving back over here... Siiiiiiigh! Luckily, he wasn't upset with me...

Ugh! STILL cigarette and slurpee free... but was EXTRA hormonal today about everything... Little things set me off as angry or crying :( Meh, I'm going to be healthier in the long run and I never get really angry...

I went to the library and got some DVDs I'd ordered and decided to see who was available for hangout. Lucky for me, Aja was! SIIIIIIIIGH! We met at the library then went to dinner at White Spot where we had WONDERFUL conversations about EVERYTHING. She's an awesome person and I look forward to future hangouts!

That's really all that went down today... OH NO! Actually, I went to pick up Angela from work and bumped into an old friend, David, from Middle School. I'd recently chatted with him online but it was nice to see him in person! We're supposed to do a game-night sometime in the near future of Karaoke games :D

More on a friday?

Hi kiddos. I'm back, I was just listening to some Patrick Wolf as I wrote some more of my screenplay for school... Which I'll do a quick write-up on since none of you know WHAT it's about! Ha ha! Mmmk, well I was listening to Mr. Patrick Wolf, which got me thinking of why I like Patrick Wolf, and the reason behind that is my VERY talented friend Beric Manywounds (who directed the above video in our film program). The kid is a genius in my eyes and I love him to death... He's recently gotten engaged to his boyfriend and there's few-to-no people I could be happier for... He's a wonderful and really taught me a lot about who I am in many ways (as a gay male, as a native, as a human being, as...) he's got a beautiful mind and UGH! I dream of one day watching his music videos all day long!

So, my movie... It's about a gay boy named Mark. Err... I'll just give a brief description of the plot actually, probably easier.

It's called "...a good time..." So, Mark and his best friend Sarah are in their grade 12 year of high school and spend their time wandering around their small town criticising everything around them. The movie opens with Mark and Sarah wandering around Liquidation World looking at crap, Sarah talks about how she's going to get a big bed when they move in together next year. Mark says he's only moving if he get's a scholarship. Mark has to go to the bathroom. In the bathroom Mark finds a number on the bathroom wall and runs to tell Sarah about it. They call the number and Steven (30 years old) answers. Mark flirts a bit, but Steven seems interested in going on a date and not a quick hookup and hangs up. Mark and Sarah lookup his info online using his number and watch him water his garden. That night they destroy his garden. The next day they drive past and see Steven is visibly upset as he talks to a neighbor. Mark feels bad, but Sarah just laughs. Mark calls Steven and has an actual conversation with him before setting up a date with him. Steven is a gay writer and activist, it turns out. Near the end of their date Mark and Steven bump into Sarah who awkwardly excuses herself away...

And yeah, the plot goes on, but I won't bore you with more of it... that's the setup of how it goes.

That's all for now kiddos... I'll leave you with another video from Beric Manywounds that he made for second year... GENIUS! I wish I had seen the final product but he didn't release it because he was upset with the turnout :( I'm such a fanboy of his UGH! I love him!

Freaky Friday!

SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH! I'm on a high right now because I just finished Lohengrin by Richard Wagner! Wonderful! Truly Wonderful! Now I have to watch act 3 of Die Meistersinger Von Nurnberg and I've seen all his operas. He does no wrongs! Seriously! I'm amazed by him! He's just like Sondheim, he only does GREAT stories!

Hmmm, what else? Tomorrow Christopher and I are going to see The Damnation of Faust at Colossus, I'm VERY excited about that!

I wrote some more of my script last night! I'm loving it! Tee hee! It's so much fun to treat it like it's a television show.

Today... I'm going to get a television with Angela for the new place and maybe some food... that is all for now kids! Catch ya later! Still CIGARETTE AND SLURPEE FREE (2 weeks on smoking tomorrow!)

Thickle Thursday...

Just a clever title... I don't think it'll actually be a thickle day, and I'm not even SURE that's a real word... I think it means something like ignorant?

Anyways! I had a wonderful sleep last night. But before that I wrote! I planned out my entire movie that I have to write this semester and it's WONDERFUL! It follows formula to a t and I love it! It's like an extended episode of Degrassi with bad language and questionable situations! I use exclamation marks a lot, meh! I also use ... a lot. I can't remember the word for that for some reason and am too lazy to look it up.

BUT YAY! I've got my script planned out and I think on my free time tonight and tomorrow I'll write it up! Hopefully the whole thing!

That's all for now kiddos! Oh, still cigarette and slurpee free, still missing Christopher (but hoping he's having a blast because he doesn't get to see his friends often since they're all over the place... ) and still amazing! That's all!

Humpday again...

Wow! It's hard to believe a week has passed already since I posted the last "humpday" post. Hmmm, well, today was nice. Christopher had a doctors appointment this morning so we decided to hang out afterwards. I picked him up and we watched Act 1 of Lohengrin (the only Wagner show I've yet to see :P) and hung out here a bit, then went to the mall and got hotdogs and orange julius' :D I just got back in not too long ago from dropping him off at SFU where he was meeting up with his best friend to hang out.

Siiiiiigh! I miss the boy already! I've grown quite fond of him... I wish I could see him more often, but I'll have to take what I can get... Still Cigarette and Slurpee free... 2 weeks for Slurpees today! :D I think a week and a half for Cigarettes. I'm doing pretty good! Keep it up kiddo!

Now I'm all mopey because I didn't get to see him longer... I'm going to watch the second act of Lohengrin and pretend he's telling me facts about it as it goes on ha ha!

Adios for now kids!

OH! PS Actually- I watched this CUTE opera called "The Cunning Little Vixen" by Janacek and it was divine! It has a really sad ending though... That's all for now!

Memory...

In grade 11, my best friend Larissa sang this song in her choir class. I'd just gotten my license so me and my sister drove down to watch her. My other friends Desiree and Jackie were there and we cheered really loud for her. The principal got mad at us for only cheering for her and "being obnoxious"... Good memory!

Toonie Tuesday? Nope-o!

Hmmm, today was meh... I got up bright and early to trek downtown to pitch my 3 shorts to the class (that went REALLY well actually!) Then remembered I had to stay til 1:15 to have an interview to go over how things were... It lasted like 3 mins because I just said "Fine, except for this interview..." And we had a laugh!

The pitches I did were:

1) Pigmalion: An abused house-wife convinces her husband she wants to do role-play in the bedroom and tells him to dress like a pig. She makes him do Pig-like things then kills him. The final scene she cooks bacon and enjoys it!
(BAH HA HA! This one got some looks :D But mostly good response :P)

2) Teddy Bears' Picnic: In a Blair-Witch style film, 2 hunters go in search of the "Teddy Bears' Picnic" to get the goldmine of bear pelts. They come across the picnic only to be captured, murdered, and eaten by the bears... Then the final scene is the bear's "Mommy's and Daddy's take them home to bed..." like in the song :D

(Tee hee! More looks given for this one too :D But honestly! The song is CREEEEEEEPY! I was driving Sir Christoper home the other night and he played THAT version... SOOOOO CREEPY! But again, good reponse for the most part!)

3) Not a full plot, but bitchy teens in a restaurant criticising everyone around them. The waitress wants to be their friend and tries to join in but they snub her... So she...

(Yeah, good response to that one, mainly because they know I can write bitchy boys and girls...)

And that's all for now kiddos!

- T.

Manic Monday... nope...

Still cigarette and slurpee free...
Woke up sore this morning but decided it was a test and worked out anyways...
It was... I feel great!

Got to hang with Christopher last night :D We hit up Denny's and were highly entertained by a group of girls (who I thought were teenagers, but turned out to be well in their 20s) talking about girly things with their "gay" friend who they asked if he had a girlfriend yet :( aww... It was a fun night though :D Not much else to report on kids! Tomorrow I have to pitch my 5 shorts... We'll see how they go over and if I even have 5 by then ;)

Adios for now!

On sunday morning...

So, I did my second cardio workout today... (not sure if I mentioned I was starting that again yesterday, but I did)... Yesterday was a BIIIIIIITCH to do! I was SO out of shape. Today was much easier. I'm hoping to do 2 weeks of cardio to get back in shape in that sense, then do alternating days of cardio and muscle. My body was PISSED at me for being so lazy over the break.

Still cigarette and slurpee free! YAY! Keeping this shit up!

Not much to report on today. OH! I went to Ikea with Robida (classmate) and Aja (other VFS student in the makeup dept) last night then hung out here playing singing games...

That's all for now lovelies!

- Tyrel

I woke up this morning... starts when I fell out of bed... Well, almost.

In my dreams last night I decided to jump off my bed and luckily woke up just in time to see what I was doing. Siiiiigh! I'm CRRRRRAZY. Not much to report on today. I need to come up with 5 short film ideas by Tuesday, siiiigh. I also need to figure out EXACTLY what I'm going to write for my feature. Since I could care less about feature writing I think I'm going to treat it JUST LIKE a Degrassi episode, but extend it out to be an hour and a half. Like maybe I'll follow the structure of the Degrassi movie and work off that. Same sort of plot, but following TV structure so I can figure my shit out. I also think I'm going to make the main character 16 and see how that goes.

Mmmmm... So I had a nice drive with Christopher to the ferries yesterday. We discussed some Wagner and the shows I had watched as well as other random things. I went for dinner and shopping at Chapters with Angela last night, where I finally bought the Special Edition of Ghost World because it was on sale :P... Then I went for Dairy Queen dessert with my friend David in Richmond. All in all it was an okay day. Somewhat boring, but not uneventful.

OOOOOOOOOOOH! I got my copies of The Ring of the Nibelung comic books by P Craig Russell in the mail yesterday! The ones I told you about back at the start of December... Yeah... So... That's all for now kids! Check ya later!

OH! Still Cigarette and Slurpee free! Over a week for both!

- Tyrel

PS- While looking for the links to annotate my post I came across this http://www.ringdesnibelungen.com/en/animation/index.html it's a shame they stopped doing it. The opening to Die Walkure is ALMOST exactly how I pictured it.

FRRRRRRRY-Day!

Hey bitches!
Just up early again, definately seems to be a new trend (which is good, if I'm going to go to the opera tomorrow it's early in the morning :D) Just waiting for Christopher to get up so I can go pick him up and take him to the Ferry... I'm listening to Britney Spears and singing along. (Trouble in case you were wondering).

Last night I watched TWO Wagner shows I hadn't seen yet: The Flying Dutchman and Tannhauser, and what did I think of them...? AMAZING! The Flying Dutchman production I watched was SO AMAZINGLY AWESOME! They play the whole thing off like the main character is CRAZY and imagining all the events that are happening and it works SO WELL!

The Tannhauser production I watched had good acting and music, but the staging was retarded! They made it all set in wastelands... it looked stupid! But I got the story and the acting, so I loved it still!

Still smoke and slurpee free. (Over a week for Slurpees, Tomorrow will be a week for Cigarettes) Keep it up kiddo!

Adios for now lovelies!

BOO!

Hey bitches! Hmmm... So, I'm up at an ealier hour again today (and it seems I will be tomorrow too, new trend?) So yeah, I DID get to see Mr. Christopher yesterday feeling much better, which was wonderful. We had a small adventure around the mall and went to Boston Pizza. We then ventured back here, to my place, and watched the third act of Gotterdammerung (the fourth and final part of Wagner's Ring Cycle) And I cried AGAIN... not so much at the very ending this time... more so during... well I'd suggest you watch it bitches, it's THE GREATEST STORY EVER TOLD (as I've said before)...

Hmmm, so yeah, tomorrow I'm taking Christopher to the Ferry's bright and early. It's a nice drive out there :D... I'm listening to The Killers newest album AGAIN... The first 7 songs, SERIOUSLY GOOD! Addicted at the moment.

Still smoke and slurpee free... KEEP IT UP TYREL! WE CAN DO IT!

Humph... I guess that's all I have to say for today so far. Update later if anything happens...

Hump day rain

Hmmmm... What to say? I went to bed early last night 10:30pm-ish... and slept til 8:30 this morning... So now, hopefully, I'm on a bit of a schedule. I chatted up Christopher a bit and am waiting on a decision from him whether I should try and pick him up or not as I get lost in YouTube Videos and what little music I have on my laptop right now. I'm sitting in front of my sliding glass doors watching the rain come down and melt this EVIL snow! BAH HA HA HA! I love the destruction of the snow!!!

Hmmm... I still haven't had a cigarette or a slurpee... So, Friday was the last day for Slurpees and Sat was the last day for Cigarettes... Let's hope I can keep this shit up!

I guess that's all for now though... Hopefully I'll do something today. Meh, catch ya later hoes!

Kinda hot shit!

Kinda hot shit indeed! My cousin posted this link earlier on facebook and I kind of love it ha ha! My Brit Brit is missing, but whatevs, still kind of fun. A mashup of the billboard top 25 songs from 2008...

http://djearworm.com/united-state-of-pop-2008.htm

Boring days...

I had a rather boring day today... I stayed in all of it sore in the muscles, eyes, and head. I'm wondering what's going on with me... Am I just not eating enough Protein? is it normal to be THIS sore after workouts? Whatever... Hopefully I'll see results soon enough.

But anyways, yeah, I stayed in and watched Richard Wagner's last opera "Parsifal". It was MARVELOUS! The version I watched today was the 1982 Syberberg Version which is a STRANGE thing indeed. It's the opera, but shot on a sound stage with strange sets and actors who are dubbed over by other singers. It was really quite cool though. I'd seen 2 film versions of operas before this, so I didn't care about the dubbed voices. The story is TRULY wonderful. I don't think I could do it justice in describing it... So I'll let wiki do that for me... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parsifal

Also, if you want to read the libretto to this or any other Wagner shows, check out this site: http://www.rwagner.net/e-t-opere.html it's wonderful...

I stayed away from Cigarettes and Slurpees all of today and shall try to do the same tomorrow... one day at a time, right? And once I get to two weeks or so, I should be fine... That's how it was last time at least...

Hmmmm, Oh, I have school tomorrow. But only one class this week. My lover is feeling better now, so hopefully I'll get to see him sometime this week, sigh... I miss him! And there's an opera screening this weekend at Cineplex theatres of La Rondine that I'd like to see with him... Sigh... We shall see...

OH! I should be starting to move into my new place next week sometime :P So, that'll be cool... pictures shall be posted when I do, it's SUCH a strange place!

Hopefully I ate enough protein today to keep rebuild my muscle for tomorrow... We shall see... I guess I'll be off to bed... night night lovelies!

January 4th Resolutions...

Yeah, that's right! I'm not sticking to New Year's damn "norms"...

Okay, so, I was SUPPOSED to be only having one Slurpee on Saturdays... But this break I've completely broken that rule and (even though I've had WAY less than my normal consumption) I'm still disappointed in myself...

So, resolution number 1... WEEN off the Slurpees... Cold Turkey might be a bit too hard (I did it 2 years ago for like 5 months, but I was stronger then and had decided I was going to lose weight...) So yeah, I'm going to have as FEW as possible and if I feel I REALLLLLLY need one, siiiiigh, I'll get a small. (I HATE smalls, they're ridiculous! When for 50 cents more you can get over triple the amount...? But no, I shall stick to this.)

Resolution number 2... Keep up this working out at least 3 (but hopefully more) times a week. I'm determined to have a nice body at least once in my life, and if it only lasts a short while, meh, at least I can say I had one...

Resolution number 3... Smoking :( UGH! I'm disgusting... I usually smoke at parties and stuff, but I've been sneaking them every now and then (well, let's not lie, OFTEN) and this has to stop too... SO! I'm going to lock up the cigarettes I have left and, again, ween off them... I've done this before too... so COME ON TYREL, let's do it again... Find other ways to deal with stress... Masturbation? Perhaps... Sex? Oh, that would be very nice, we'll see though :P It'll probably be a BIG combination of both.

Resolution number 4... continue writing daily... even if it's just this stupid blog that goes un-read. I shall carry on writing SOMETHING daily.

Annnnnnnnnd, I think that's it, OH! No, actually, I'd like to continue reading more again. I was doing SO good in the summertime with my reading. I read TONS of classics, but I should keep this up again...

But yeah, that is all for now. Adios!

OH, PS- I got my car out of the parking lot and stole the bitch with the white car's spot (which was originally my spot anyways!) HA HA! Take that cunt!

Sunday in the Apartment with Tyrel...

So I got home around 1-ish from Sawn's last night and had a lot of fun parking because this douche in a white car took up pretty much 3 ("not one, not to but THA-REE!") spots.

Then I went to bed and had a nice LOOOOOOOOONG sleep! Then I got up and worked out listening to Britney and danced around a bit. I'm THIIIIINKING of attempting to get out of my parking lot, but I hate all the "helpful" people that come watch if you're stuck... BLECH!

Hmmmm... Not much else to report on today kiddos... But if you enjoyed the video link above... You'll love this:

It's old, but never seems like it... SIIIIIIIGH! Stupid bitch, I love her!

Saturday... in the snow...

Almost didn't post anything today... Not much to report on kiddos. I'm TIIIIIIRED slept a lot and finished reading "The Return of Sherlock Holmes" which was wonderful. Not AS good as "The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes" but still really good.

Then I went out for dinner with Sonya, Nathan, (two friends in North Van) and Angela (my sister). I wrote a bit of my screenplay for school and... that's about it. Oh, and it snowed quite a bit.

Still at Sonya's so going to go back to the lovelies!

ANNNNNND...

And what the hell?

A Memory...

I had a memory of a story I loved in Grade 7 today...

It was in my Humanities 7 textbook and was set in Mesopotamia (I BELIEVE...), it was about a dog. The story was about this boy who lived in some village and had a dog as a pet. He loved the dog a lot. Then one day a volcano (or some natural disaster) hit the village and he had to evacuate with his family. To the boy's horror, his dog had to be left behind. The dog sat in the family home as the volcano (?) attacked the city... Cut to thousands of years later, an archeologist is digging up ash in the city and comes across the bones of a dog and wonders what it's story could have been...

I remember I CRIIIIIIIIED about this... It was such a wonderful story to me back then and now I can't find it. But yeah, the boy loved the dog, the dog loved the boy, the dog died alone and was thought of thousands of years later... so operatic! WONDERFUL! Truly wonderful!

Am I the only one that thinks this?

Nothing changes on New Year's Day...

Bonjour reader (if you exist)!
So, last night made me feel OLLLLLLLD! Siiiigh! I went to Larissa and Nick's place in Van for Larissa's b-day get together with Angela, Gordo, and Terrill (it was his b-day too). We hung out and drank a bit and by 10pm I was TIIIIIRED! 10PM! We left shortly after 11pm and celebrated the new year while driving home, ha ha! It was kind of nice though, as we crossed a bridge and it turned fireworks went off from somewhere!

We just listened to music and talked and that's what we do now. Terrill was the last of us to be a teen and he turned 20 last night :(.

I was the designated driver and as I drove the drunks home I listened to my ipod through my stereo and sighed when "Graduation" by Vitamin C came on followed by "When You Were Young" By The Killers.

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I listened to the The Killers' newest album today and quite enjoy the first 6 songs on it. The others are good too, but the first 6 really get to me. Especially:

A Dustbowl Fairytale

This is Your Life

Anyways, love you all! Adios for now!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU!!!