I think I'm crazy...

... I don't know, but I think I have some sort of mental disorder... Besides the obvious body issue eating disorder (which I thought was gone, but no... not really)... I don't know what it would be called, but...
- I have this need to be liked by all...
- I don't like it when someone dislikes me or is upset with me... I'll do a lot to get out of that bind... A LOT!
- I chameleon myself in different crowds to be best liked :(
- I'm overly nice...
- I overthink everything and tend to think the worst is going to happen...
- I worry about people I care about to the extreme...
- I dislike myself and think I'm hideous sometimes...
- I cry a lot...
- I don't think I'm good enough a lot of the time...

and worst of all, I hide it all... I never let anyone see any of it, that might make them think something's wrong with me and I couldn't have someone worry about me... now could I?

So this is my confession to be a crazy... it's out there in the open now! For none to see ;) I really do hate myself...