Oh and Stupid Girl!

Yeah, so I DID end up recording more Stupid Girl Episodes :D There are 18 in total now (That's 8 BRAND NEW episodes for series 2, with 3 more on the way!) and ALL can be accessed at my youtube channel:

http://www.youtube.com/user/crayonrayon

I must be getting old...

So today I was sitting and realized that my viewpoints have changed once again. I don't know if this is a common thing, somewhere just before turning 22 I started changing drastically. My mind grew up ridiculously fast and I was confused about a lot of things that were going on in my life. In my 22nd year I fell in love, was used, had my heart broken, and fell in love again...

Things happen so quickly now, things want to be settled in my mind and they want to be settled now. My personality and lifestyle has changed so much this past year, everything... Sigh, I wish I were young again... THERE!

It's so strange, today it just hit me my thoughts went from "I'm ALMOST 23???" to "I'm only 22!" What the hell? One day I feel like age is rushing at me too fast, then suddenly I'm thinking there's all the time in the world. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

Also, I'm turning into a lesbian COMPLETELY... Now, if you're lezzer don't get all offended... It's the truth that many stereotypes are true, just like with my group, the faggots. It's just the sad truth. Anyways, one of my best friends is a Lezzer, so back off!

<3 you!

- Tyrel

The Bitch Hasn't Been Bloggin!

Yellow Kiddos!
Wow I've really been neglecting you haven't I? Hmmm, not a lot has gone on in recent days that I'd care to talk about except the following:

- I got 2 tickets to Rigoletto CHEAP for Christopher and I on March 17th! :D
- I MIGHT be taking Christopher to Seattle this weekend to explore, stay at a hotel, and see "Bluebeard's Castle with Erwartung" at Seattle Opera!
- My screenplay is done it's first draft! I'm pleased with it, the class was pretty pleased too.
- My sketches that I submitted for the Sketch show next term went over AMAZINGLY thanks to this genius actress they got to read the part I created!

That's about it though... Third Term ends tomorrow, so we'll see what next term brings! Hopefully I'll have time for a part-time job :D

With Love,
Tyrel Boelsma

PS- I MIIIIIIIGHT record season two of Stupid Girl in the next week or so... depends if I feel like getting made up :S

Wow! I'm missing days left right and center!

Hmmm, what to update on? I had Tues off and Christopher spent the night, I dropped him off Weds before school... Not much happened Weds. Last night was Thurs so we had our Disney Princess night... it was Aladdin (next week is POCAHONTAS! EEEK! I'm excited!) Annnnnnnd? That's about it really... I'm getting Christopher tonight, he's sleeping over, and we're going to the opera early tomorrow! Adios for now!

- Tyrel

Manic Monday? Not really...

So, not much to report on today... Just went to school for Doc and Sketch... I had to write jokes for sketch and they actually got a pretty decent response. I have tomorrow off... not sure EXACTLY what I'm doing yet... MIGHT go to Chilliwack and if I do I hope Christopher will come :P we'll see!

VD and Today?

Yesterday was a MOSTLY good Valentine's Day... very close to wonderful... I won't get into the small snag that makes it not wonderful because it's done with and hopefully it won't happen again...

So, I got up bright and early, went to pick up Christopher and took him to the theatres where we saw the opera, Thais. It as nice, the opera was PRETTY good except we both agreed the ending could have been cropped quite a bit, but meh!

After that we had a tiny nap at my place and headed downtown to the library. We then met up with a friend of Christopher's and all had dinner together, then we wandered a bit and got desert at the cupcake place downtown. We wandered to a Scientologist booth and I picked up some reading materials that we then ridiculed...

It got to be later so I took Christopher home and that was that.

Today? Nothing... Boredom.

Tomorrow is VD

So yeah, tomorrow is VD. First time in a relationship on it. We're going to see an opera at Cineplex (Thais), then I don't know what... :P

Last night was Disney Princess night and it was BEAUTY AND THE BEAST! <3 Twas fun...

That's all for now, have to write some stuff :S

February 11th!

Hey there,
So it's Wednesday Friday the 11th and I had a pretty good, but sort of strange day :D First I got up at 4am (Why? You tell me...) and decided to go get Christopher :P We hung out a bit, slept a bit, then eventually got up and went to Metrotown where we ate and wandered...

Then I came home and had an actually nice conversation with my father where he actually talked about my eating disorder and acknowledged it for what it was a bit... He wanted to know if I was eating and wanted to know why anyone would ever starve themselves... so I let him know it's a body issue and doesn't have a ton to do with eating just a crazy idea that you're not good enough... He wanted to know if he could do anything, I just let him know I'm doing okay right now... It was sweet but I wish I was fine... In actuality sometimes I want to go back to not eating... I don't get it at all, but I do.

Again, I think I have a mental disorder or a few... Sigh... But yeah, so the day was pretty good...

If You Say I'm Not Okay Then That's The Goal!

I'm kind of in love with this song by Lykke Li called I'm Good I'm Gone

Enjoy this remix! :D

A Conversation Piece for Music in One Act...

The title has nothing to do with the post... I just happen to love that subtitle for some reason. It's a subtitle to an opera by Strauss (Richard, not Johann) called Capriccio... I haven't watched the opera yet, it was Strauss' last and I'm excited to see it because he's a genius of a man! :D

Anyways, today is Monday, so I had stupid class all day today. I had a pretty decent day, wore my kilt with a nice dress shirt, tie, and vest... Had to go to Doc class, which was lame, ate dinner with Mike Robida at White Spot, and got to chat with Christopher for a bit... Although my conversation skills today are lame so I'm sure he was annoyed with me :S Meh... I can be on more than a rare occasion...

Tomorrow I got the day off from school and my sister got the day off from work so we venture out to Chilliwack to see Terrill :D I'm excited for that! Not sure if anything else is happening, hoping to see Christopher a bit on Weds... but he is pretty busy researching so we'll see... Not much else to say here. So night night loves!

Not finished but progress is far!

So yesterday I spent quite some time with my script and have managed to get into act 3, meaning I have about 20 pages left to write before I'm done :D I have to write up a sketch today (or go through old sketches and find one that suits this assignment) and I have to finish up my doc paper (which is on the back burner because I could care less about documentary class)

I went and watched Coraline last night in 3D :P It was a treat! Really cute, dark, and somewhat scary :P

Today, I don't know what's going on... I have to get my bus pass back from Christopher at some point... Then I'll probably have to give him a ride home... My parents are going to be here tonight... The rest shall be a surprise, I guess...

That's all I want to say kids.

A day to finish what you started...

So today I shall write... We'll see how far I get, I DO want to try and go see my friend Sonya today if that's possible, maybe get some eats with her... we'll see.

Last night I went through all the stuff I'd written last weekend in my trance and it was actually QUITE enjoyable. I thought it would be preachy bullshit, but I don't think it is at all.

Today I got a nice wake up to my phone ringing. It was Christopher just calling to tell me what he was up to :P It was sweet... We chatted a bit about the happenings of his life yesterday and today and what he was reading about. Then I decided to get up and be productive.

UGH! Hopefully that black cloud above my head is drifting away... We shall see, adios for now!

5 days no pop, over 1 month and one week no cigarettes or slurpees!

...

God, I'm so up and down lately... I'm fine right now, but still don't feel all that attractive... I feel like a wreck and am feeling guilty for the things I eat again... Eating disorder are you knocking on my door again? Should I answer?

- Tyrel

An Emo Wreck!

... so, it's very late...

Just need to let something out before I can go to sleep...
I feel extremely stupid and ugly lately.
I'm a total emotional wreck...
I wish someone would tell me I'm pretty/handsome...
I'm so pathetic I practically begged for a compliment tonight and didn't recieve one but heard about how great some other people are right after...
I want to just yell at someone (anyone, really) to tell me I'm good looking...
The only way I've felt anything lately is through sex and when I don't get that I question whether or not I'm good looking enough...
I feel fat... I feel stupid... I feel...

FUCK! I'm such an emo right now... Just a simple "You look good today" would be sufficient... But why do I need that? Why am I so insecure?

God I'm a retard! I hate myself at the moment...

Turrrrrsday!

Wow! Emo last night, eh? Well I'm over that now :P back to hiding everything ;) Today is Thursday, so as part of our weekly Disney Princess ritual, I am going to Tiana and Stephanie's with Christopher to watch:
SIIIIIIIIGH! I LOOOOOOOVE The Little Mermaid! Can't wait to sing along to "Part of Your World" <3!!!! Have a SHORT SHORT SHORT class today, then I have to hit up the library where I'm picking up a BILLION Opera DVDS :S Then... probably relax til movie time... ADIOS KIDS!

I think I'm crazy...

... I don't know, but I think I have some sort of mental disorder... Besides the obvious body issue eating disorder (which I thought was gone, but no... not really)... I don't know what it would be called, but...
- I have this need to be liked by all...
- I don't like it when someone dislikes me or is upset with me... I'll do a lot to get out of that bind... A LOT!
- I chameleon myself in different crowds to be best liked :(
- I'm overly nice...
- I overthink everything and tend to think the worst is going to happen...
- I worry about people I care about to the extreme...
- I dislike myself and think I'm hideous sometimes...
- I cry a lot...
- I don't think I'm good enough a lot of the time...

and worst of all, I hide it all... I never let anyone see any of it, that might make them think something's wrong with me and I couldn't have someone worry about me... now could I?

So this is my confession to be a crazy... it's out there in the open now! For none to see ;) I really do hate myself...

Lundi

Bonjour! So today is Monday and I was up late last night writing, not sure if it's any good... I fell into a trance and ended up writing a ton of stuff I don't remember... we shall see.



I got to see Christopher yesterday for a bit, which was nice... I gave him the wooden recorder I bought him at Long and McQuade and he loved it. He also fell in love with MY ocarina, so I gave him that too... The things I do... ha ha! I'll find myself another... They're too much fun!



I'm in sketch class right now and we're reading our sketches aloud. Mine got a pretty good response :D YAY!



Tonight I have to make sure to finish up my port short, for tomorrow and I need to read some too.

Sunday: The day of writing...

So, I neglected to write
til LATE last night
and find myself in a pickle,

I'd best write all of today,
or find my life taken away,
by the end of Death's sickle,

I've laid the foundation,
I know the setting,
Now I should head to the writing station,
Before I start forgetting,

Not sure WHERE that came from... The first line I wrote rhymed though, so I figured I'd go with it. Yeah, so I have to write today... AT LEAST 15 pages of my screenplay. Yesterday I got myself an Ocarina (because Christopher's intrigued me so much) and played it for a great deal of time yesterday figuring out the notes and teaching myself songs. SIIIIIIGH! That's all I've got to say for now, perhaps I'll post the juicy details of my script later!

Adios mis amigos!